guilt is a powerful weapon

PJ has been out of work since the end of October 2010. We have all grown accustom to him being here. Yes, it has been hard financially but the benefits of having him home have greatly outweighed the bad times.


PJ got a call this morning, they wanted to set up an interview. The pay is good (we can live on it), full time and 3rd shift (which we wanted 1st or 3rd shift).


He has an interview tomorrow at 2:30pm.


I don't mean to sound selfish and I know that he needs a job and this is what we have been looking for, for months but I was really looking forward for him being home all the time leading up to and after Sophie is born.


The only thing I can do is pray. Pray that God's will be done. If He see's fit that this is the road we take then so be it. As with everything else we are giving this situation to God for Him to do with what he will. If PJ is meant to get this job he will, if he is meant to wait then he won't.


I still feel guilty for my thoughts and feelings on the subject, but I am human. Guilt is a powerful weapon, but I know that God is more powerful than anything.